HOW LONG LORD?

JANUARY 17

Psalm 13

Psalm 13:1, “How long, O Lord? Will you forget me forever?  How long will you hide your face from me?”

“I was sure by now
God, you would have reached down
And wiped our tears away
Stepped in and saved the day
And once again,
I said, “Amen” and it’s still rainin’.”
—Casting Crowns, “I Will Praise You in this Storm.”

Whenever I hear this song, I think of Laura in her cancer situation.  Diagnosed to have cancer in January 2017, she’s carried the burden of a terminal illness and chronic pain for almost eight years now.  In that, there’s the temptation to assume that God has hidden his face or forgotten her situation. But He’s not forgotten!

The exact circumstances of David’s situation are unknown to us.  But it’s fair to say that his thoughts have echoed through the centuries in the lives of others who likewise found themselves in a longstanding difficulty.  That David asked, “How long?” four times speaks to his intense desire for deliverance and great despair in hearing no answer from God.  As Charles Spurgeon put it, “Time flies with full-fledged wing in our summer days, but in our winters he flutters painfully.”  I’ve witnessed the “painfully” part in the day-after-day anguish experienced by some of our hospice patients.  They’ll asked, “how long?” with respect to the days until God takes them home.

David asked, “how long?” but was refreshed and encouraged by recalling God’s steadfast love (Psalm 13:5).  No matter his circumstances, the fact remained that the Lord had “dealt bountifully with (him)” (Psalm 13:6).  The cross serves as an ongoing reminder that no matter how troublesome our circumstances or deep our sorrow, nothing “will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord” (Romans 8:39).  He cannot and will not forget us!  

“But Zion said, ‘The Lord has forsaken me; my Lord has forgotten me.’  ‘Can a woman forget her nursing child, that she should have no compassion on the son of her womb? Even these may forget, yet I will not forget you.”—Isaiah 49:14-15

Application Questions: Have you ever felt as if the Lord has abandoned you?  Have you ever felt as if your prayers were bouncing off the ceiling?  How can focusing on the steadfast love of God, and his faithfulness, help?  What can help to shift your focus?

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Author: looking2jesus13

Jerry L. Conklin was born and raised in Hillsboro, Oregon. After graduating from high school, he enlisted in the United States Navy and served for six years in the Navy’s Nuclear Power Program. He was assigned to the USS *Omaha* (SSN-692), a nuclear-powered fast-attack submarine, where he served as a reactor-plant electrical operator. His military service took him to ports and locations throughout the world and provided extensive technical training, leadership experience, and an enduring appreciation for those who serve in the Armed Forces. Following his Navy service, Jerry earned a bachelor’s degree in Nuclear Technology from Thomas Edison State University. He worked at the Trojan Nuclear Plant near Rainier, Oregon, first as a reactor operator and later as a training specialist. After sensing God’s call to pastoral ministry, he left the nuclear-power industry and earned a master’s degree in theology from Western Conservative Baptist Seminary in Portland, Oregon. Jerry served for twenty-seven and a half years as senior pastor of Lewis and Clark Bible Church in Astoria, Oregon. During those years, he preached and taught the Scriptures, provided pastoral counseling, performed weddings and memorial services, trained church leaders, and served individuals and families throughout the community. He also served as a fire department chaplain and participated in a variety of community ministries. After retiring from full-time pastoral ministry, Jerry and his wife, Laura, moved to Heppner, Oregon. There he served for approximately four years as a chaplain with Pioneer Memorial Home Health and Hospice, providing spiritual and emotional support to more than 150 patients and their families. In 2023, the Oregon Association for Home Care honored him as its Chaplain of the Year. Jerry also helped establish South Morrow County Seniors Matter, a nonprofit organization created to address the needs of older adults following the COVID-19 pandemic. As chairman, he worked with community leaders and volunteers to develop a weekly senior meal program, a monthly veterans’ lunch, and other activities and services. The organization served hundreds of seniors, mobilized more than 200 volunteers, and received statewide and national recognition. In 2025, Jerry was named Heppner’s Man of the Year, and his community service was later recognized by United States Senator Jeff Merkley. International missions have also been an important part of Jerry’s ministry. He has made ten trips to Uganda, where he has taught at pastors’ conferences, preached in churches, participated in Bible-school graduations, distributed Bibles and Christian materials, and encouraged local pastors and ministry leaders. He developed the discipleship booklet *First Steps with Jesus* to help new believers understand and grow in their faith. Jerry is the author of numerous books, Bible studies, devotionals, and teaching resources, including works centered on prayer, Christian hope, spiritual growth, and the person of Jesus Christ. His decades of preaching and teaching reflect his commitment to presenting biblical truth clearly, practically, and faithfully. Jerry and Laura were married for nearly forty-two years and raised four children. They were also blessed with three grandchildren. Laura passed away in August 2025 following an eight-and-a-half-year battle with cancer. Jerry currently lives in Hillsboro, where he helps care for his elderly father. He continues to preach, teach, write, and serve others through pastoral and community ministry.

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